Forward, Back and then Half Circle the Other Way…

It’s funny that when you decide to make a decision that life likes to pull the carpet out from under you as if to say ‘who do you think is in control?’ As many know I’ve been applying for my British passport and the waiting game that has been underway since March has been driving me crazy.

Finally I decide to just let the process take it’s time, to put it far from my mind until it’s completed. This week curiosity got the best of me, patience is a virtue that I do not possess and while I was busy making other plans, found out the passport should be processed by the end of the month.

All the plans that I’ve made in the interim are now up the air. Furthermore I received an email about an opportunity stateside that has me questioning what path I need to take. I’ve come to the crossroads before and veered left and have always wondered what if, now that the same opportunity has presented itself again do I venture right or continue on my course?

The Road to take, I haven't decided yet?

Are You Ruled by Your Head or Heart?

My mom has started to send me daily quotes to one get me through the work day as she knows that I’m a quote a’holic’ and secondly to motivate my spirits with the London drama. Today’s quote was "I've learned that you can do something in an instant that will give you heartache for life.’

Mom, I don’t know how ‘uplifting’ that quote is but I understand its validity! We’re always cautioned to look before we leap and I have to admit, I’m guilty of NOT following that advice. I tend to go with my gut and heart quicker than taking the time to mull things over.

Looking back I realize some of my rash decisions have led to disastrous consequences but most have been to the contrary. Some of my best decisions have been spontaneous and resulted in positive life changing events.

Are you ruled by your heart or your head?

One Freaky Friday the 13th

I’ve never believed in superstitions, witchcraft or séances but instead been a firm believer in things happen for a reason. However that still doesn’t mean that having the rug pulled out from underneath me repeatedly one day doesn’t make me wobble. Today has been one of the ‘endless carpet rides.’

Despite having to dye my hair from brown to blonde, pretty soon it will be instead from the grey of this repeated up and down turn of events. I’m hoping this weekend will lead straight on to forging the decision making.

Confronting the past, present and future all at one time can make a girl dizzy. I know indecision can lead to a decision but if you’re powerless to determine its outcome can confuse matters completely.

One part is pushing for leaving, another to stay behind while a third is offering two different choices where one perplexed individual, me, is saying what now? If I ever think I’m starting to understand life, please feel free to smack me!

“Dream as if you'll live forever, live as if you'll die today.”

James Dean said it best with dream as if anything is possible but live life like each day is your last. Throw caution to the wind and embrace life’s challenges. Too many times we reach the end of our lives with not I wish I had never done that but instead, why didn’t I take the chance.

Mistakes are not the end of the world, we all make them but they mark and allow us to keep growing. We should not be the same person we were at the start than at the end of our lives. What makes us unique is the circumstances and the challenges we’ve faced.

The expression ‘what doesn’t kill us makes us stronger’ I find to be most telling! Do you want to come to the end of your life with battle scars or unblemished? The choice is yours, but I’ll take the bumps and bruises life dishes out.

I took the one less traveled by, and that has made all the difference.”-Frost

Royal Wisdom

Royal Wisdom

By Amy Carothers

Things are changing so fast

From Osama gone to the Royal Love Nest

History is in flux, where do we go from here

Wondering with overseas, do we need to fear?

Chants of celebration can be heard outside my wall

Flags waving, people crying, our anthem playing proud

Remembering what happened those ten years ago

How life has changed and with it our ability to let go

This monster’s death brings back to life

Those sirens, screams and terror of that morning's sight

Although this gives families and our country some closure

We must never forget the very thing that brought us closer.

The Alarm Tolls and I Answer Its Shrill Call

LET ME THROUGH

I woke up this morning with such a sudden sense of clarity (not due to the fact my alarm clock didn’t go off, that had me making a mad dash to work) but instead a rush that put everything into perspective.

Almost like a puzzle, all the pieces that were once unable to fit were doing so with such ease. I wondered why I had been trying to jam them into spaces that didn’t belong for such a long time.

Sometimes a friend needs to confront you with the truth and just say plainly, "what do you want and that you have a fine line where that window is cracked open just long enough that you can see your dream and it’s able to be pushed open to make it a reality."

Once that proverbial window closes, a dreamer is locked out of that possibility and might spend the rest of their life wondering how to shatter its unbreakable glass. It’s funny how the window is also see-through and reflects what you really want. The question becomes, do you make the vision, actuality?

I’ve spent a long time wondering how to make my dream come true and I now know the answer is just to believe in yourself. Whatever obstacle you face, if you confront it and work hard, anything is possible!

Family Fascination: Trying to Climb the Family Tree

I’ve always had an interest in family history as knowing your roots gives you a deeper understanding of yourself but with shows like ‘Who Do You Think You Are’ and the easy accessibility of records on Ancestry.com, I’ve been seeking the tree tops.

I’m trying to understand my fascination with a family that I will never meet and now has become such an importance in my life. Greeting names, stations and unique situations, I find as the page turns, it’s better than any mystery book I’ve read. This time, the ending is me but what’s before is anyone’s guess.

The more I thumb through history the more my curiosity grows. I’m so intrigued about what can be unturned that I get frustrated when I can’t get past a certain ancestor and my family can’t understand my passion for this research.

Calling them on my progress, I know their feigning interest but in reality, I know they don’t care. Bless their hearts, they listen to me prattle on. Good thing too as I never shut up!

It’s time to confront the past with the present and like the current theatrical production, ‘Anything Goes!’