Monday, December 19, 2011
Tuesday, November 1, 2011
By Amy Carothers
Such a tiny little thing almost could be ignored
Fighting its way to the surface more of a bothersome than a sore
Wouldn’t even have noticed except a blackish bruise
Now the waiting begins, to find out the news
The unknown is fleeting more than ever before
How could such a small thing become impossible to ignore
Settling in the back of my mind making me question
Life’s oddities and my future’s direction
Family history has always been important to me
But this tie to my past, I’d rather not see
Banding together the women in my family tree
What leaf will be unturned, what will the future be?
Thanksgiving is a time of hope and health
Never more, do I want that for myself
Wednesday, October 26, 2011
By Amy Carothers
To many years I fought the waves
The ups and downs keeping the currents at bay
I’ve learned this year you can’t control
Everything life bestows
The most important thing is to be true to you
Don’t let others drag you down or be cruel
Make a choice to stand up for yourself
You’ll be surprised how good it felt
Loving is powerful but can be binding
Friday, September 9, 2011
Falling Towers and Dreams
By Amy Carothers
The day the towers fell
Broke our nation’s spell
Shaking it to its very core
The Big Apple’s security felt no more
Unprepared that it could happen here
Holding tightly to each other trying to abate the tears
From the ashes heroes were born
Brave men and women forgoing the scorn
Entering the Trade Center to save others
Risking their lives for their sisters and brothers
The tenth anniversary brings the past home
People anxious of what the day holds
Remember live your life to the most every day
Carpe Diem, Always Seize the Day
Friday, August 5, 2011
Bradbury said it best with ‘Half the fun of the travel is the esthetic of lostness’ and I love to get lost, well purposely in any place that I visit. Sticking to the tourist trappings, you don't get a chance to really see the setting. It’s often when you venture off the beaten path that you come across something special.
Many of my trips have take me for the first day to the landmark locations but soon after I’m questioning locals on where their favorites places are to eat, visit or are the not-to-miss-attractions of their city or village. The locals have yet to steer me wrong so when I visit, I’ll be questioning. So that’s a warning to any of you, if you’re in a place I haven’t visited yet. Look out!
Once again I've booked another trip, departing in mid September. I’ve been itching to go overseas and within an hour yesterday, booked, got the time off approved and paid my security deposit to go to Amsterdam, Paris and Bruges. Three locations that I haven’t been to yet, so I just ‘had’ to go!
It’s funny with venturing out to Long Island this weekend I started realizing that my suitcase or carry-on bag is used more than my apartment. I love getting out and enjoying all that life has to offer and don’t want to be trapped in by four walls. Why not voyage into where the world takes you, just make sure to have your passport in hand!
Wednesday, July 13, 2011
It’s funny that when you decide to make a decision that life likes to pull the carpet out from under you as if to say ‘who do you think is in control?’ As many know I’ve been applying for my British passport and the waiting game that has been underway since March has been driving me crazy.
Finally I decide to just let the process take it’s time, to put it far from my mind until it’s completed. This week curiosity got the best of me, patience is a virtue that I do not possess and while I was busy making other plans, found out the passport should be processed by the end of the month.
All the plans that I’ve made in the interim are now up the air. Furthermore I received an email about an opportunity stateside that has me questioning what path I need to take. I’ve come to the crossroads before and veered left and have always wondered what if, now that the same opportunity has presented itself again do I venture right or continue on my course?
The Road to take, I haven't decided yet?
Friday, June 3, 2011
Mom, I don’t know how ‘uplifting’ that quote is but I understand its validity! We’re always cautioned to look before we leap and I have to admit, I’m guilty of NOT following that advice. I tend to go with my gut and heart quicker than taking the time to mull things over.
Friday, May 13, 2011
I’ve never believed in superstitions, witchcraft or séances but instead been a firm believer in things happen for a reason. However that still doesn’t mean that having the rug pulled out from underneath me repeatedly one day doesn’t make me wobble. Today has been one of the ‘endless carpet rides.’
Despite having to dye my hair from brown to blonde, pretty soon it will be instead from the grey of this repeated up and down turn of events. I’m hoping this weekend will lead straight on to forging the decision making.
Confronting the past, present and future all at one time can make a girl dizzy. I know indecision can lead to a decision but if you’re powerless to determine its outcome can confuse matters completely.
One part is pushing for leaving, another to stay behind while a third is offering two different choices where one perplexed individual, me, is saying what now? If I ever think I’m starting to understand life, please feel free to smack me!
Wednesday, May 4, 2011
James Dean said it best with dream as if anything is possible but live life like each day is your last. Throw caution to the wind and embrace life’s challenges. Too many times we reach the end of our lives with not I wish I had never done that but instead, why didn’t I take the chance.
Mistakes are not the end of the world, we all make them but they mark and allow us to keep growing. We should not be the same person we were at the start than at the end of our lives. What makes us unique is the circumstances and the challenges we’ve faced.
The expression ‘what doesn’t kill us makes us stronger’ I find to be most telling! Do you want to come to the end of your life with battle scars or unblemished? The choice is yours, but I’ll take the bumps and bruises life dishes out.
Monday, May 2, 2011
By Amy Carothers
Things are changing so fast
From Osama gone to the Royal Love Nest
History is in flux, where do we go from here
Wondering with overseas, do we need to fear?
Chants of celebration can be heard outside my wall
Flags waving, people crying, our anthem playing proud
Remembering what happened those ten years ago
How life has changed and with it our ability to let go
This monster’s death brings back to life
Those sirens, screams and terror of that morning's sight
Although this gives families and our country some closure
We must never forget the very thing that brought us closer.
Monday, April 11, 2011
|LET ME THROUGH|
I woke up this morning with such a sudden sense of clarity (not due to the fact my alarm clock didn’t go off, that had me making a mad dash to work) but instead a rush that put everything into perspective.
Almost like a puzzle, all the pieces that were once unable to fit were doing so with such ease. I wondered why I had been trying to jam them into spaces that didn’t belong for such a long time.
Sometimes a friend needs to confront you with the truth and just say plainly, "what do you want and that you have a fine line where that window is cracked open just long enough that you can see your dream and it’s able to be pushed open to make it a reality."
Once that proverbial window closes, a dreamer is locked out of that possibility and might spend the rest of their life wondering how to shatter its unbreakable glass. It’s funny how the window is also see-through and reflects what you really want. The question becomes, do you make the vision, actuality?
I’ve spent a long time wondering how to make my dream come true and I now know the answer is just to believe in yourself. Whatever obstacle you face, if you confront it and work hard, anything is possible!
Thursday, April 7, 2011
I’ve always had an interest in family history as knowing your roots gives you a deeper understanding of yourself but with shows like ‘Who Do You Think You Are’ and the easy accessibility of records on Ancestry.com, I’ve been seeking the tree tops.
I’m trying to understand my fascination with a family that I will never meet and now has become such an importance in my life. Greeting names, stations and unique situations, I find as the page turns, it’s better than any mystery book I’ve read. This time, the ending is me but what’s before is anyone’s guess.
The more I thumb through history the more my curiosity grows. I’m so intrigued about what can be unturned that I get frustrated when I can’t get past a certain ancestor and my family can’t understand my passion for this research.
Calling them on my progress, I know their feigning interest but in reality, I know they don’t care. Bless their hearts, they listen to me prattle on. Good thing too as I never shut up!
It’s time to confront the past with the present and like the current theatrical production, ‘Anything Goes!’
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
Lemony Snicket got it ‘write’ when he called his novella the Slippery Slope as that’s sometimes how I feel when I'm getting ready to plunge into my next adventure. Don’t get me wrong, I’m ready to slide but at the same time when you’re perched on top of that jagged point there's a brief moment of hesitation as the tiniest step will suddenly have you spiraling & sliding without control.
Things in life change so quickly. Do you stick with the plans you set in motion or do you re-address since circumstances have changed? Looking ahead and behind can both mean saying goodbye and am I ready? That slippery slope continues to confront my reply.
Life is funny as making the decision should be the hardest part when in actuality sticking to it, I find even more difficult. I keep pushing against a glass wall that’s taking a long time to shatter; waiting for months to break through is the hardest part. What to do when you’re ready to leap but circumstances require you to stay and
It’s a game of
until then! I know my choice, now I just need to wait to make it happen so I don’t make it a ‘Series of Unfortunate Events!
Wednesday, March 2, 2011
I find it funny how kids have such a different perspective on things. As jaded adults we tend to see the glass empty while kids say it’s still full. Their take on certain situations, although they mean to be serious can be instead seriously funny!
Mistaking the meaning or their own innocent interpretation results is a deadpan comedian that doesn’t realize how funny he or she is being. Here are some great examples and feel free to share some of your own favorite kid experiences.
Tuesday, February 22, 2011
As I don’t trust to keep anything in there
Guys get distinguished as they get old
But girls get the ‘bum’ rap I’m told
So to the gym this girl goes
Hopefully to get into those skinny clothes
Running around, no end in sight
Until those jeans, aren’t so tight
One day the mile will reach its end
Wednesday, February 16, 2011
If that’s true, who am I? It such a strange thing being judged by who you were in the past. To quote a regarded musical ‘how do you measure a year in the life?’
As the years go by friendships, marriages and people change. Who you were in high school, college or even at the beginning of a courtship is not who you are twenty years later. I think that’s the problem with a lot of marriages.
People go in expecting their lives to stay the same and are disappointed by the changes in their partners. The real test of a relationship is that as time evolves you grow together. If not, you will grow apart, it’s inevitable.
Travel marks to your life, like stamps in a passport by imprinting and enriching your experiences. By visiting a country and obtaining firsthand knowledge you’re challenging your own misconceptions. It’s very easy to argue with a closed door as no one is in your face pushing against your opinions and beliefs. By taking the chance in opening, you’re facing a backlash of thoughts unlike your own.
There’s nothing wrong with change, if you’re still the same person you were at 15 as at 32, you haven’t really grown in life. Meet life head on and challenge the unknown.
Thursday, February 3, 2011
A friend of mine just unexpectedly lost her father this morning; with no warning he was gone! Since she left, I’ve felt so shell shocked, in such disbelief that someone so young could pass.
I have a tempestuous relationship with a certain member of my family and although we love each other have a hard time communicating. Some say that we’re too much alike especially in our temperaments. Hey, I’m an Aries after all! ;)
But in all seriousness, just thinking that I’ve never made things completely right with him terrifies me. If something God forbid was to happen would I be able to look back and say that I had done everything in my power to change things? I'm saddened to think I haven't but figuring out how to is another matter.
Life is fleeting; we don’t know how much time we have and once it’s gone, we can never get it back.
Monday, January 31, 2011
|Hot Tub Time Machine-Wikimedia Commons|
I think that’s why I love shows like Being Erica so much as the main character gets the opportunity to go back and ‘fix’ things with the knowledge she’s learned and apply it to the mistakes of her past.
|What Door Would You Choose|
Friday, January 28, 2011
Shakespeare said it best with “All the world's a stage, and all the men and women merely players. They have their exits and their entrances.” But I’m challenging that, can that really be all that life amounts to, is that really it? How much of life is by chance vs. predestined?
Are we all just acting as if awaiting that next part, choosing instead to let life pass us by without a fight? Too many times I’ve heard people coming to the end of their life with a list of regrets mostly being "I wish I had" or "If I could go back, I would."
Let’s not wait until retirement, the lottery win, marrying the prince that would sweep you away from everything, but instead stand on our own two feet and demand that we’re going to go after what we want.
Life is full of possibilities; the problem is that we’re afraid of the unknown. It's safer to walk the line and not deviate into the winding path, not knowing what’s at the end and having to face the fear that you might just fail.
Monday, January 24, 2011
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
Wednesday, January 5, 2011
Yes, Springsteen ‘sang’ it best, but have you ever felt that you keep running around knowing what you’re after but in search of it, you whirl around until you're dizzy and then with despair realize you’re standing exactly in the same spot you started?
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